What is it worth, my life?
Two Master’s degrees.
A Bachelor’s degree.
A marriage to a wonderful and very successful man.
A son, lovable, handsome. brilliant.
Friends.
Cats.
These are all part of my life, components of my life.
But what is the sum total of it?
What am I worth? The elements that make up my body may fetch you $3.00!
How much did I contribute to the world?
So what am I worth? What is the sum total of me?
Don’t feel good, probably obvious.
Probably because of stopping Zoloft, my brain is in withdrawal for the effect of Serotonin. I just have to withstand it for 6 months to a year, easy. That is when, according to my doctor, my brain will normalize and the withdrawal effects of Zoloft will go away. Until then, I live with these fluctuations of mood and feeling like a rag doll.
Did go to the lab today, have started in earnest. Waiting for a project. Maybe that will make me feel worthwhile, feel I have worth, feel I am worthy.
There are so many things bothering me, but I am not sure if it is because of my mood or if they are really issues, so I will not speak of them here.
Just go on, put a smile on my face, turn off my brain and exist, live.
Bipolar1Blog 
Sometimes it is no small feat to put on a smile and simply live, taking one step after another. Hope your brain functions better soon once Zoloft withdrawal ends.
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Thank you! It helps when someone understands and says encouraging words!! Yes my mind feels totally slowed down, with a litany of negative comments playing on a loop, and the rest of me feels like all my physical strength has literally been sucked out of me. Not a good thing! But thank you for your lovely words. 😊
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You are welcome.
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I relate to this post so well, and my wonderful friend Kitt O’Malley hits the nail on the head with her comment. I hope with all my heart that your Zoloft withdrawal timefreame is the exception to the rule of 6-12 mos,i.e. that it happens much sooner! I hope by the time you read this message you feel better, but in case you don’t, please know I’m thinking of you and you’re in my thoughts & prayers. You are an incredible and beautiful person!!!! (((hugs))))
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You are so sweet! Love and hugs for you :))
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