Just got back from Buffalo last night. Even ordinarily, this is a depressing, and horribly anxiety ridden time for me. All manner of fearful, depressing thoughts swirl inside my brain. So with this abandonment thing going on, I was very afraid, I mean actually afraid for myself, that I wouldn’t be able to handle it. But I am riding the waves of anxiety. Sometimes it feels like my chest cavity is full of hot red pepper, sometimes it’s so intense that it literally feels like a gut punch. But I know it is only anxiety and I ride it out. I tell myself it is only a wave of anxiety and it will pass. The thoughts, which are all fears for my son and his future, I try to keep at bay. I am also reading a wonderful book called “The Journey From Abandonment to Healing” by Susan Anderson. This book has given me so much hope that I have the power to recover and live my life without the constant fear of being abandoned. It tells of people who have recovered, therefore if they could do it why the heck wouldn’t I be able to? Of course I will. And now I’ll ride the anxious waves and try to send them love.
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Thank you so much, hoping for peace and joy as a result of therapy and work on myself 🙂 xxxooo
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I’m re-reading all the blog posts I’ve missed for God knows how long, but I’m going backwards, so please forgive me! I’m so sorry about these awful waves of anxiety and I hope they subside soon, my sweet Samina. I know exactly what they are like as I ride them too. I’ve been using Rescue Remedy tincture (safe to use with the MAOI) which helps a bit. Not as much as I’d like, though! I’m thrilled that Susan’s book is helping you, by the way! I’ll have to remember that so I can recommend it to others at my women’s group! XOXO LOVE YOU!
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Hi Dyane and welcome back! Hmmm I’ll try that Rescue Remedy too, I’ve seen it but never used it. What i really need to do is work through the issues that are causing the anxiety and hopefully take care of them once and for all. Love you too! XOXOXOXOX
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You can do both – work through the issues and when it hits really hard, it helps to have Rescue Remedy as an option! I don’t work for the company, LOL! Just a thought! Much love! XOXOXO
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Haha. Good thought! I’ll try it. 🙂 XXXOOO
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Sending you positive and calming vibes.
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Thank you!
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I know you will!!!
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Thank you my dear friend! Love you lots!
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Hope the anxiety is chilling out
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Thank you, it seems better today. It’s always worry about my son 😞
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You’re a good mom, that’s all
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❤
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