Crocuses are such harbingers of hope. When they appear, you know that winter is about to be over and spring is about to come.

I would like to get a handle on my abandonment issues and the ensuing anxiety and extreme fear of loss so that I can live life on my own terms.

I would like these issues (resulting from awful things that were done to me way back in the past) to NOT have any effect on my present life, moods, or actions. I am sick and tired of being controlled by something that happened years and years ago.

To get control of my life and live it on my own terms, this is what I am hoping, and expecting therapy and work on myself will accomplish.

Tomorrow I have an appointment with my therapist, Anna. I will share what happens in my session.

However long it takes, I am in it to win it, haha. No seriously, I am in it for however long it takes to heal myself and get control of my moods, emotions, actions, and ultimately my life.

Amen.