Well here’s the test…

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My brother has been taking bee pollen for the last few days and I just now read an email from him saying he had an allergic reaction to it yesterday. Swollen lips, itchy eyes, the whole nine yards. However, he is planning to take the bee pollen again tomorrow morning. I read his email so late that I could not talk to him. I have texted him and said “DO NOT TAKE IT AGAIN or you will go into anaphylactic shock.” I texted my step dad and my sister imploring them to make sure he does not take it again.
The immune system, when it sees an allergen such as bee pollen, will mount a mild immune response to it at first. Upon repeated exposure, this immune response will get stronger and stronger, until finally the allergic person will go into anaphylactic shock! I believe this is what is happening to my brother, and if he takes the bee pollen again, he will go into shock. Not only can he NEVER take bee pollen again, he has to now carry an Epinephrine pen with him, just in case of accidental exposure. His immune system has been primed from these first few exposures and is ready to go, all guns blazing.
I hope and “pray” that he listens to me. I have set my alarm for 7:30 am so I can call him and absolutely forbid him to go anywhere near the bee pollen.
I am full of anxiety and dread at what he is going to do. I cannot lose another brother.
So much for the power of now. I am telling myself to remain calm, I have done what I could do being 600 miles away. I feel guilty for having traipsed around all day, celebrating the power of Now and not having read his email earlier.
Ok. Calm down. Be in the Now. Don’t bring phantom catastrophes upon your head.
I hope he reads my texts and listens to me, I am, after all, a Molecular Immunologist.
Oh please listen to me, Little Brother and don’t take the damn bee pollen ever again.
We will survive. I am assuming all’s well with him right now, and I’ll speak with him in the morning. I accidentally, somehow just pasted the following into this post, how appropriate it is to the current situation: “I am not my thoughts, emotions, sense perceptions, and experiences. I am not the content of my life. I am Life. I am the space in which all things happen. I am consciousness. I am the Now.I Am.”
(Excerpt From: Tolle, Eckhart. “Stillness Speaks.” New World Library, 2009-01-01. iBooks.
Check out this book on the iBooks Store: https://itunes.apple.com/us/book/stillness-speaks/id379310794?mt=11)

Calm down. Stay in the present moment. Do not catastrophize.

“The Power of Now” by Eckhart Tolle.

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I started reading “The Power of Now” by Eckhart Tolle two nights ago. What he teaches in that book is nothing short of miraculous. And I don’t use that word lightly, not al all. What has the power to heal you from depression, anxiety, anger, envy, unhappiness, and more? Yes, the power of NOW! He says there is nothing else that exists except for the Now. And this is true, the past is gone and even when it existed, it was the Now, the future does not exist, and when it does , it will be the Now. So the only thing that exists is the Now. A series of Nows. He says that the future and the past are constructs of the “egoic mind”, created by the ego. The ego creates these constructs to keep us unhappy. The ego needs unhappiness and drama to exist, therefore it keeps creating drama, discontent, pining, etc, otherwise it wouldn’t exist. But when we live in the now and don’t live in the past with our victim stories, or wait for the future with our thoughts that say we will be happy when ______ fill in the blank… if we live in the Now, yes right now and pay attention to what exists right now (because that is all there is) then we cannot be unhappy. There is no past to bother us, there is no future to aspire to. There is only the NOW! And we are present in the now. Our anxiety falls away as we don’t worry about the future, our depression disappears as we are not living in the past. These egoic constructs, past and future simply disappear and we are left with an aliveness, a vibrancy, a joy for living in the present moment! Our minds are quiet, not creating the egoic constructs of past and future. We notice everything. How a flower blooms. How the clouds are beautiful, how the sun is warm, how our tee shirt is soft, the birds are chirping. We don’t just live in our minds tortured by our egoes and ignore all there miraculous things. We are Present to the moment of Now.

And when we stray away from it because our ego is making more drama and conflict within our mind, we can use our breath to bring us back to the Now. It is always here, it is the only thing that is here.

I have been feeling very depressed and anxious for the last few weeks. The primary thought in my anxiety ridden and depressed mind was the safety of my son. This book actually directly addressed by problem by saying that anxiety about a problem in the future, which may never happen, is a phantom anxiety and you cannot fight it. The only thing you can do is pay attention to the Now, Be Present Now. If the problem arises, know you will be strong enough to deal with it. That is amazing! I think I really will be strong enough to deal with any problem that arises in the future. I cannot live in terror of something that may or may not happen in the future. I am living in the Now and I am going to keep on doing it. I know this is such a simple concept and yet we don’t practice it. We go about blindly every day, on autopilot, seeing nothing that is happening in the Now, hearing nothing that is happening in the Now, because our problems are in the past or we are waiting for the future to be happy. Be Present Now. That’s how easy it is.

Reading the book would be the best thing you’ve done for yourself! I know it the best thing I’ve done for my mental health! And I feel Better today than I have in a long time!

If it sounds strange, maybe it will at first, or I haven’t explained it well enough, but reading it will clear things up. There is wisdom, genius, instruction, help and answers in this book. For anyone, and everyone if they’d just pick it up and read it.

All Hail to the Power of Now :-)!

https://www.eckharttolletv.com/books/now/