There is something else that I wanted yo talk about that I would bet not many people have experienced. I certainly wish I hadn’t. It’s called Anhedonia. It is a complete absence of positive emotions. And it is one if the most terrifying states any one can ever experience. It is sheer emptiness and fear. It feels like you are are a new born baby who is left all alone in the world after nuclear armageddon. I don’t know how else to describe it. I have experienced it and it is truly terrifying. A few years ago, I was rapid cycling in my mixed phases, minding my own business, when I woke up from a nap and wow all my positive emotions were gone, zapped. I called my psychiatrist’s office in a panic, and he told the secretary to tell me to go to the emergency room if I felt so bad. All he had to do was call me back and talk to me, I didn’t need to go to the ER. I felt so alone and betrayed by this doctor. Oh yeah, I will write a post soon about BAD psychiatrists who mistreat and even abuse their patients, because of course we are mentally ill and who is going to take us seriously if we complain?