So, now what? Hmmm, just anxiety. That’s all. Stomach churning, hard to breath, head full of swirling negative thoughts, fear, so much fear. How courageous do you have to be to live with all this fear? Is it me? Is it bipolar? How to parse, how to untangle? No idea. Don’t want to do it anyway. So tired of ruminating. My aim is to quiet my brain into utter silence. No thoughts. Nothing nagging at me. Nothing ratcheting up the fear. No unbearable anxiety. Possible? Hasn’t been till now.

But hope springs eternal.

Funny.