Couldn’t really tell you why, but this year, the bottom has fallen out and I’ve landed straight in hell. This is not me. I am not this hopeless and terrified. I am not this anxious and panic stricken. I’ve lost 10 lbs in a week! This is bipolar. This is what this awful illness is doing to me. I’ve talked to my doctor and increased the lithium and the Seroquel. Now I need for these to kick in and take effect and for me to stop feeling so god awful, for me to start feeling better and more like myself. That day cannot come soon enough. I can’t wait to feel happy, calm, peaceful, not afraid for my beloved son.
This is what this horrible disease does to us. It makes us not ourselves. Always in crisis. Too many emotions, far too intense, so intense that it is literally painful. Don’t need it, don’t want it, go away bipolar, leave me alone!
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Sending some positive vibes your way! I hope you get some sense of normalcy soon and find some balance with your meds.
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Thank you very much Vic!
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I know the feeling. You’re a strong woman and you can pull through this. You’re in my thoughts.
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Thank you so much Jess! 🌷
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I will be praying for you, beautiful Samina – you’re a strong, amazing person, and you WILL make it through this. Serouqel and lithium increases can work magic – I think that increasing one or the other (or both) helped you before, if my memory is correct.
I’m proud of you for blogging, being honest and putting it all out there!
Lots of love heading your way this very minute!
Give my love to Fluffin too!
💜 Dyane
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Thank you my dear Dyane! Yes I’m waiting for the meds to kick in. And thank you for remembering our little Fluffin! 💟💟
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