Sometimes I feel the burden of life is too much. What have I done to deserve this heavy, hellish life? Where is my luck? Good luck? The luck I see so many people possessing. Some people can skate through life without getting a concussion. They can grow up without suffering abuse. They can have siblings, all of whom live to old age. Their families do well. There is not some crisis or other every few days. I am tired. I am exhausted. Lately, things had been looking quite rosy, had been looking up. But once again, it did not last. Someone extremely dear to me was physically harmed by hoodlums. I feel sick, nauseous, not knowing what I do next. How to survive, indeed why survive when there will only be another calamity sooner or later?
And again I sit here and wonder. When does it stop. Does it ever stop? Will me and mine always be used as a cosmic punching bag?
Literally sick and tired. The fight inside me ebbing away, seeping away.
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Hang in there and take care.
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Thank you! Trying very hard to do that.
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Try and keep your head up high!
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Thank you, so much!
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You’re welcome!
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Forgive me if I’m overstepping in ANY way, beautiful Lady S, but have you seriously considered ECT? You know I had it done in 2013 (when I went off meds) and when my Dad died in 2009, and it helped me get out of that hole. I’ve also heard positive things about TMS. Sending you love and strength and you’ll definitely be in my prayers so that you feel better soon…..
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Thank you Dear Lady Dyane! It’s not depression so much as constant worry. I’ll talk to my psychiatrist. 💕💕
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I keep trying to like your comment but it won’t let me 😦
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No worries – sorry it’s being stubborn like that!
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All I can do is let you know you are not alone. Fight the good fight, cheering for you!
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Thank you Vic! Appreciate your comment very much.
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Take some rest. Recover. Never give up.
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Thank you Kitt, but sometimes life is unbearable.
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Yes, sometimes it can feel that way when your brain sends horrible thoughts and debilitating depression. Remember that the depression will go away and though the pain and physical symptoms like fatigue are real, the depressive thought process lies. Life is worth living. You are loved. Your life has value. You make a difference.
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Thank you do much dear Kitt!
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