A question for my readers: Do you think it is possible for us to heal from trauma and change the way our brains and minds function and live peaceful, normal lives?
Please do me a favor and let me know what you think.
I ask myself that question all the time. Like, every waking minute.
I’ve been Rolfed, which is supposed to reset muscle memory. Hurt like hell, but didn’t do much.
Hypnosis was interesting. So was the year of NLP certification training.
Acupuncture is a trip, good for endorphins, but….
30 years of psychotherapy gives me someone to talk to, at a price…
Lots of medicines put me into a coma at night and block out the flashbacks that otherwise have me on the ceiling all the time….
And just when I think I’ve got things pretty well under control, my son tells me I’m not good in his eyes and I’m back groveling, begging, and what good is it a all?
But I will not let them have the satisfaction of saying, “See, I told you so, she did it just to get attention.”
I’m too damaged to go out and get another degree to prove to myself that I’m really “somebody.” So I lick my wounds in the desert and wonder whose bad idea this whole thing was.
I think my answer is, for me, the die was cast when I was in utero. My mother was a dexadrine abuser, I was a drug addicted newborn, and by the time my mother actually held me it was too late, no bond, just major inconvenience, and that’s been written intro my soul like Kafka’s “Harrow.”
I didn’t mean to go on like this but once I got started I couldn’t stop…
I believe that we CAN change our brain chemistry with cognitive therapy and “thinking about what you’re thinking about.” But I don’t think we’ll ever be “normal” in the sense of the word that the rest of the world recognizes.
I believe we can overcome anything and everything, as long as we want too. But just like blahpolar said…our slates will never be wiped clean. I feel once we can accept our past and accept what has happened to us, we will be able to move on from anything!
I ask myself that question all the time. Like, every waking minute.
I’ve been Rolfed, which is supposed to reset muscle memory. Hurt like hell, but didn’t do much.
Hypnosis was interesting. So was the year of NLP certification training.
Acupuncture is a trip, good for endorphins, but….
30 years of psychotherapy gives me someone to talk to, at a price…
Lots of medicines put me into a coma at night and block out the flashbacks that otherwise have me on the ceiling all the time….
And just when I think I’ve got things pretty well under control, my son tells me I’m not good in his eyes and I’m back groveling, begging, and what good is it a all?
But I will not let them have the satisfaction of saying, “See, I told you so, she did it just to get attention.”
I’m too damaged to go out and get another degree to prove to myself that I’m really “somebody.” So I lick my wounds in the desert and wonder whose bad idea this whole thing was.
I think my answer is, for me, the die was cast when I was in utero. My mother was a dexadrine abuser, I was a drug addicted newborn, and by the time my mother actually held me it was too late, no bond, just major inconvenience, and that’s been written intro my soul like Kafka’s “Harrow.”
I didn’t mean to go on like this but once I got started I couldn’t stop…
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Oh Laura, you and I are a pair! But we’re a brave pair. And we’ll keep trying for as long as we are alive! Peace and happiness and love for us both.
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I think we can heal a lot, I don’t think we ever wipe the slate clean, so to speak.
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Thank you Blah! That’s what I’m hoping too.
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I think being intelligent and sensitive means stuff hurts more.
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Yes, absolutely agree with that. Kinda wish I was dumb and insensitive, or at least dumber and more insensitive!
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What is “normal?” I think you need to define that, however once you do I think that – with a good support structure – you can overcome anything.
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I believe that we CAN change our brain chemistry with cognitive therapy and “thinking about what you’re thinking about.” But I don’t think we’ll ever be “normal” in the sense of the word that the rest of the world recognizes.
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Yes, you can overcome anything.
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Ok, my most positive, fairy god sister!
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I believe we can overcome anything and everything, as long as we want too. But just like blahpolar said…our slates will never be wiped clean. I feel once we can accept our past and accept what has happened to us, we will be able to move on from anything!
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Thank you, that’s exactly what I am hoping to do, overcome and heal from the abuse and abandonment 🙂
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All we can do is try, we’re human! ✌🏽️
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Ain’t that the truth!
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