Sometimes I just want to break down and cry
At the exquisite beauty of life
At the hideousness of it
At the warmth and tenderness
At the frigid, iciness
At the loving arms enveloping me
At the cruel feet kicking the life out of me
At my terrifying, heartbreaking love for my precious child
At the fear and terror that everything will go wrong
At the family gatherings with love, care, and compassion. Loving togetherness
And the aching goodbyes, the pangs of missing each other, “Oh we were all together just yesterday!”
Feel and feel and feel too much
My heart cries out at your tender touch
Time to up the Lithium? Yes, if it gets any deeper than this.
Beauty and feelings mean nothing to me if I’m in the hospital in a freaking manic phase.
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You really captured those feelings beautifully. Thank you for sharing this post.
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Thank you so much! Fircreadibg and your kind comment!
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Sending you my love, my beautiful friend. I know how it is and suggest that you up the lithium now, not later… forgive me for sounding bossy I just don’t want you to suffer anymore than you have to, in the 900 mg of lithium I take a day and make such an enormous difference, although at one point my former psychiatrist had me at 1575 and it was a total nightmare…hair falling out, shaking like a freak… think I’ll just leave it at that. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers today!!! Xoxo
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Thank you my dearest Dyane! I know about too much Lithium, 1200 mg did all those things to me. Ugh! I’m on 900 now, maybe increasing the Seroquel will work. I’ll call my doctor. With love and hugs my friend.
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XOXOXOOXOOXOXOXOX Seroquel has also saved my ass big-time as you know. Praying for you tonight to the “unknown angels” – I would do it right now, but I’m in a room with other people and need to be alone since it requires my saying it out loud, LOL!!!!!
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Thank you dearest Lady Dy! I sure could use some prayers to ward off the weird injury jag I’ve been on. Xxxxxxoooooooo
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Sorry for the typos!! Xoxoxo
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Didn’t see any. Xxxooo
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I understand. Why I’m inside hiding from the overstimulating rays of the sun. Coming down from hypomania of last week.
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Hope you well soon! Hugs.
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