At the exquisite beauty of life
At the hideousness of it
At the warmth and tenderness
At the frigid, iciness
At the loving arms enveloping me
At the cruel feet kicking the life out of me
At my terrifying, heartbreaking love for my precious child
At the fear and terror that everything will go wrong
At the family gatherings with love, care, and compassion. Loving togetherness
And the aching goodbyes, the pangs of missing each other, “Oh we were all together just yesterday!”
Feel and feel and feel too much
My heart cries out at your tender touch
Time to up the Lithium? Yes, if it gets any deeper than this.
Beauty and feelings mean nothing to me if I’m in the hospital in a freaking manic phase.