I absolutely love horses, and this would be such an amazing thing to learn and do!

http://humanequinealliance.org

Equine-Facilitated Psychotherapy and Equine-Facilitated Learning.

http://humanequinealliance.org/blog/

From: http://www.nature.com/neuro/multimedia/depression/index.html

Around 10% of people will, at some point in their lives, suffer from depression, a mood disorder characterized by long periods of sadness, loss of motivation, excessive fatigue and a lack of interest in once-pleasurable activities known as anhedonia. Brain imaging studies demonstrate that many of the brain regions responsible for normally regulating mood show disrupted function in depression, which can be reversed by antidepressant drugs or behavioral and cognitive therapy. Researchers have turned to animal models of chronic stress to learn more about the neurobiology of depression. Chronically stressed mice show some symptoms that are similar to those of depressed humans: high levels of anxiety, less social interaction and anhedonia. As in humans, chronic stress in mice can lead to altered plasticity in various mood-related brain regions, including the hippocampus, amygdala, nucleus accumbens and prefrontal cortex. These changes in plasticity can be reversed by some antidepressant drugs, including ketamine, which has rapid antidepressant effects in patients. In this animation, we explore the neural circuits affected in depression and illustrate the molecular and cellular changes thought to underlie the effects of chronic stress and its remediation by antidepressant drugs.

Happy Holidays everyone!

A 12.5 mg increase of Seroquel and I am feeling just about 100% normal!! Miraculous, absolutely miraculous, considering the hell I’d been living in the last three days! Thank goodness for these meds. Even though I rail against them sometimes, they truly are a godsend. More when I’m not falling asleep, tomorrow. Taking deep breaths and going to sleep now. Good night all, sweet dreams.

Mental illness is such a fucking waste of life! It is such a waste of a day, of moments. It is such a waste of time. We could be doing something constructive, we could be doing something artistic. we could be doing something positive, That’s what I’m going to do, right now. Damn it! I’m not going to let this god awful thing beat me, I’m going to decorate my tree!

Ah bipolar, how many guises do you come in? The manic, with its highs, fast talking, fast walking, ideas upon new ideas, boundless energy;  and the depressed, no new ideas, no energy, crying, suicidal ideation, yes we know those. The mixed phases, a mixture of both mania and depression with increased anxiety; even those ones we can recognize after a while. The incredibly anxious one, with panic in our breasts, hot peppers in our chests, pathetic crying spells, tears, copious tears streaming down our faces, not wanting to go out, obsessed with one thought, that something bad is going to happen to our loved ones, something so bad that we will not be able to handle it, terrified for our loved ones, anxious, out of our minds, now this is a new one, at least for me. The answer to this riddle? Trying an increase of 12.5 mg Seroquel. Cut a 50 mg pill into quarters, lets see if this will squash the anxiety without putting me to sleep, although at this point, being put to sleep sounds good to me haha. Just took it, so far, a little dizzy, but not sleepy. If this doesn’t work, I’ll increase to 25 mg, and if that doesn’t work, I will call my psychiatrist. Although most of his suggestions are no good for me… Maybe I’ll try meditation, maybe that will help… I’m sure exercise will help…

Actually anxiety seems to have subsided a little, Although muscle weakness has increased 😦 If I hadn’t been raised to speak without profanity, I think I would be swearing right now. Yes I would.

I would probably give my right arm to be rid of this torturous disease…

Yes it is difficult to talk about mental illness. No one wants to talk about how they are depressed or manic or anxious. It’s embarrassing, maybe you don’t even know you are in a manic phase. But when you do know, you do realize, talk about it. Talk to your doctor, your therapist, if you have one. Talk to your friends, let them know what it feels like. It’s important to start a dialogue. It’s important to make people understand. Our brains can hijack our lives, it’s important we understand our illness as well as we use our voice to make others understand mental illness.

From: http://www.scientificamerican.com/article/changing-our-dna-through-mind-control/

“Lead investigator Dr. Linda E. Carlson and her colleagues found that in breast cancer patients, support group involvement and mindfulness meditation – an adapted form of Buddhist meditation in which practitioners focus on present thoughts and actions in a non-judgmental way, ignoring past grudges and future concerns — are associated with preserved telomere length. Telomeres are stretches of DNA that cap our chromosomes and help prevent chromosomal deterioration — biology professors often liken them to the plastic tips on shoelaces. Shortened telomeres aren’t known to cause a specific disease per se, but they do whither with age and are shorter in people with cancer, diabetes, heart disease and high stress levels. We want our telomeres intact.