I Struggle to Recover Myself

As I disappear into the abyss of anxiety and panic, my life suffers, my relationships suffer, I suffer, and my blog suffers. I don’t want to be here. I want to stop over thinking everything. I want to stop being a burden of fears upon my loved ones. I want to stop being terrified about my son and burdening him with my fears. I’ve tried Ativan, it worked for me in the past, but did not this time. I’m taking my L-Methylfolate, (see here: https://wordpress.com/post/bipolar1blog.com/3412)

I am taking 1200 mg if Lithium and 250 mg of quietipine. 

I think the L-Methylfolate is helping a bit. 

Letting go of my son and letting him handle his life will be better for him and me. 

There are many reasons I have become an anxious, panic stricken wreck. Or is it only that I’ve developed an anxiety disorder and the reasons are tacked on to it after the fact? I don’t know. I only know I want my peace of mind back. 

6 thoughts on “I Struggle to Recover Myself

  1. Oh Samina honey, I’m beyond sorry – sorry doesn’t begin to cut it!!!!! It’s good to hear from you, but of course not good to learn you’re suffering. 😦 Please know that you’re in my prayers! I’m glad that the L-Methylfolate is helping a little! Lots of love and hugs, sweet Lady S!

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  2. Dearest Samina…I’m so sorry to hear that you are struggling. I’m thinking of you, praying for you, and wishing you a quick recovery from this latest trial.

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